Stay and fill me up with something else
You’re all that’s left and I’ll be
Picking up the pieces of our past
Like broken glass
Affection ruptures lonely nights
But I’ve always been the last in line
For romance
Captive among lonely hearts
Are all we are
Captive behind broken hearts
Are all we are
So lovely can I stay the night
And baby if I said that I’ll be back tomorrow
This might be a bit shy from the truth
As lonely as the days that we begin to follow
Somehow we become those walls we build
Somehow we lose the urge to feel
Somehow I’ve become the lesser man
We become products of ourselves
Slave to despair
Despair to aspire
A real lovers love
The profound beating of this chest
A poetic type of touch
That reminds us who we are
The feeling, the rhyming rhythm
Recalling wounded thoughts
Still seeming a little tempted
To set these sheets aflame
As your eyes close
He finds that it’s worth more
As he’s slipping out the back door

wat a wasteful weekend

i must admit i slept like 90% of my weekend.

i saw the shins at ameoba<3

party hopped.. well sorta it was lame...

and went to a really bad show in whittier...

and this morning i got blood.

and i really miss teo.

it weird not being able to pick up a phone and call him

i just cant get u off my mind.

so thats about it... my horrible weekend,

pointless

christmas is/was  pointless

everything .is pointless

eveyone. is pointless

its hard to get anything done when every little thing i do feels so fucking pointless

they wont be there for you to fix your mistakes... but guess who always is...

i really fucking hate pedro and i need to get far away. far far away from these people, the drama, and especially this never ending heartbreak and hopeless dream. nothing can come true when im sitting here worrying about how much money i have in my account or when im gunna pick up next, or weather or not i sitll matter. those shouldnt be the main worry of my life right now, but they are and they are clogging up my thoughts and i cant help but linger on them. im really fucking sick of hearing and seeing whats going on. oh how i wish things were so much different, like having a decent family, not fucking up in school, never letting myself get so carried away with you. i havnt even started college and already i feel like a failure. where is my positive reinforcement? hah probably sleeping off last night. well im done feelign like this.im so over it, time to upgrade.